If there’s one thing that 13 Reasons Why(book version) made me realize, it is that I am not as mentally unhealthy as I thought I was. I sure am an over-thinker but what she went through is not something that would make me take my own life, I believe. I think I’ve gone through worse and I am still here. I am not, in any way, trying to invalidate her hardships or anyone else’s who went through the same thing as hers. It’s just that I feel like it is something I’d be able to bear, you know what I mean? I guess I’m stronger than what I give myself credit for.

Do you know how the Church always say “This year will be a breakthrough! Claim it!”? For the past couple of months, I was so lost and didn’t feel like any kind of breakthrough will come my way any time soon until yesterday, when I received this award and I received a very good news.

I keep saying I trust God because He knows what’s best for me. I do but I realized I didn’t trust Him 100% because at some point, I feared and I doubted. But you know what? He does know what is best for me and you. He knows the perfect timing because He has had it all planned out for us even before we were conceived. 

I know I worked so hard for this award but I would not have gotten this if God didn’t give me the strength and courage and wisdom as my weapons for the past 12 months. I managed to pick myself up because He picks me up. I can’t thank Him enough. I don’t deserve His blessings but He give them anyway. This award is all Him and all for Him! 

Maybe a soulmate is not necessarily someone you marry or end up with for the rest of your life. Maybe a soulmate is someone you will always love even when you’re already married or have a family of your own. It’s the person who makes you feel at home just by looking at them or remembering them. It is someone who will make your heart ache but in the most nonchalant, beautiful way.

You know what’s the difference between reading a book and watching a movie? in books, you’re the actor and the director all at once and you’re just being handed a script. Somebody else wrote the story for you, but the execution is basically all up to your own imagination. It’s amazing. Movies are easily forgotten, not every little detail remains in your head but when you read a book, you remember every wee bit of it because you are it. You turned it into reality. You became a part of the story. Actually, you became the story.

15 Book Challenge

  1. Eat Pray Love — Elizabeth Gilbert
  2. Since You’ve Been Gone — Morgan Matson
  3. The Five People You Meet in Heaven – Mitch Albom
  4. The Giver – Lois Lowry
  5. The Zahir – Paulo Coelho
  6. You Know Me Well – Nina Lacour x David Levithan
  7. Uglies — Scott Westerfield
  8. Throne of Glass — Sarah J. Maas
  9. Love Letters to the Dead — Ava Dellaira
  10. The Kite Runner — Khaled Hosseini
  11. We Were Liars — E. Lockhart
  12. Second Chance Summer — Morgan Matson
  13. The Book Thief — Markus Zusak
  14. My Heart and Other Black Holes —Jasmine Warga
  15. 13 Reasons Why – Jay Asher

I am gonna challenge myself to read 15 books this year — 2017. I know 15 is not a lot of book and seems like a small number of books to read for a whole year but considering my busy schedule? Boy that’s a lot. I honestly have no idea how I’m gonna make time but I’ll try my best to make it work.

I have already started reading Since You’ve Been Gone and Eat Pray Love last year but haven’t been able to finish it. So I really have to finish them by now so I can move on to the other books. 9 of these books though, I have yet to buy. I’ll write reviews about them too.

This is not in order though. I am also thinking of reading the whole Harry Potter series and Game of Thrones but… we’ll see. Hahahaha! Care to suggest some of your favorite books? I love reading book reviews! 🙂

1.) Learn how to say no and not feel guilty about it.
2.) God is your sole support system.
3.) Hustle. Pray. Repeat.
4.) Always give your best shot.
5.) Mistakes are your best teachers.
6.) Forgive.
7.) If you don’t have anything nice to say, try to keep it to yourself.
8.) Not everyone always needs your opinion the same way you don’t always need theirs.
9.) Stay grounded.
10.) Eye for the long-term goals.
11.) Surround yourself with positive people who direct you to the right path.
12.) Not everyone will believe in you but it’s important that you don’t stop believing in yourself.
13.) Never settle.
14.) Read more.
15.) Keep doing what you love as long as you’re not affecting other people negatively.
16.) You are enough and don’t let other people make you think otherwise.
17.) Don’t be afraid to be different.
18.) Walk away from toxic people, friendship, relationship or environment and don’t feel bad about it.
19.) Your happiness is important.
20.) Write again.
21.) You can keep your corporate job while doing what you’ve always been passionate about.
22.) Time management is key.

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017

I had a love-hate relationship with 2016. But I can only remember all the good things that happened this year. It challenged me in so many levels. Everyone I’m close with can attest that I’m not a risk taker. I always feel the need to be 100% sure of how things are gonna go, beforehand. I fear failure so much that I hold myself back from trying new things. I’m always on the safe side. But 2016 pushed me out of my comfort zone in tremendously. And somehow, I’m proud of myself for that. I’ve accomplished quite a lot of short-term goals which I am very happy about! But in 2017, I’m gonna start eyeing for long-term goals and try my best to really make them happen! This year, it’s gonna be all about me. My growth, my future and everything in between. I am ready and I am positive that I am bound to conquer yet another year with God’s help!

I would not have survived 2016 without these people. They made it a lot more fun and worthwhile. I lost and gained new friends in and it’s bittersweet but that’s inevitable. I just really want to thank every single person who stayed by my side both in good times and the bad times. I am not entirely sure until when they’re gonna stick but they will forever hold a special place in my heart.

Happy, happy new year, everyone!!!